Hmmmmm.... I realize, having read punkbandaid's last entry, that it has been ages since I have had something like that to write about. Years since I have even gotten drunk. I can't really complain, I was never really too impressed with being drunk. Sure it has its high points, like dancing with my girlfriends or flirting with gorgeous strangers, but to tell you the truth, I have much more fun ( and success) at doing those things NOW, when I am not drunk. Like I can dance for
much longer, and be way better at it, when I am not staggering or if the room is not spinning. Also I no longer need the added confidence alcohol can miss-guidedly bestow to flirt with gorgeous people. I have the audacity to approach anyone and everyone I want to, without the need to then slurr my words.
It reminds me of this one guy who tried hard to impress me and pick me up at the local bar. He asked me if he could buy me a drink, and he seemed like a nice enough guy, not exactly what I am attracted to, but I hate to give out rejection if I don't have to. So I accepted his offer and we sat down together to chat while we enjoyed our drinks. Not more then 3 minutes into our conversation, he gestured a little too enthusiastically and successfully knocked my entire drink onto my lap, not missing my chest in the process. The look of horror and embarrassment on his face made me laugh so hard. It was really not the worst thing that could have happened, I am pretty easy going, but he didn't feel the same. He could barely look me in the eye after that... poor guy.
I do have some fond memories of getting drunk though, it can't have been all bad, and although it does tend to make people want to have more sex, it often incapacitates men from actually performing... well not
all men and not
all the time, luckily. But even if you are not incapacitated, I personally don't like the room to spin when I am having sex, it makes me ill, not too mention the smell of alcohol is NOT an aphrodisiac by any means. The hangover the next morning also inhibits any fun romping you may want. Now this isn't to say that I don't like having a glass of wine every once in a while, or a nice cold corona with lime, but I just don't ever like to get to the point of
drunk.
I have a good friend who is SO much like me when I was 17, that it amazes me at ho
w much I have changed. Sometimes I don't feel any different then I did when I was 17, or 13, or even 10, I still remember that young girl who was afraid to approach guys at a dance, but who did it anyway and hid her insecurity and disappointment when getting turned down. It is almost insane how much that has changed... now I am the woman who gets chased by the guys. I blame my smile... it gets them every time. As a young woman, I knew that I had some peculiar power that affected men, but I didn't really know what to do with it and mostly I made messes. Now I know exactly what my affect on the opposite sex is and I have no issues putting on my serious shoes and going for what I want. And I want it all.